A first good check around people.
Anyone who knows me well knows i can talk to everyone at all times. Since my stroke i can barely talk with more than 2 people at a time. I had to cancel a big BBQ with closest friends and all my family. It was at about 30 people who all were wanting to talk with me. The bbq was for me being alive from the stroke. I realized, after a small close view of people, my brain couldn't do it. Wife agrees with me. So we plan on doing small groups one at a time. Starting with my fishing groups. Basically my closest friends and the first people, outside my wife and kids, I instantly remembered after "waking up" from my stroke. I could tell them all by name immediately.
So today was my big check. Unfortunately not for good reasons. Had a family wake today. Luckily the majority of the people aren't my relatives (she was my aunt out of marriage) so out of my Uncle and cousins they weren't relatives. I still had to deal with people talking that I wanted to talk to. I did have a little problem but not as bad I thought i might have. Two small times I needed to cool down and breathe, but small and quick and not noticeable except by my wife. And fine without leaving the area to cool off.
So next is small bbq with my closest friends. Next after is the Swap and Shop. See how I do. Unfortunately the swap and shop may be the biggest check. Depending on how many show up. Again I'll let every know any problems I'm having and what to do. Luckily not much to do on your end except to leave me be if I say I need to be alone for a bit. Don't need helps to follow, just let me be alone for 20 to 40 minutes (depends how bad I try to keep doing it when I'm feeling bad).
A bad problem to check myself, but the check was a good check. I was worried, and very badly so, how I would do.
So small quick update
Anyone who knows me well knows i can talk to everyone at all times. Since my stroke i can barely talk with more than 2 people at a time. I had to cancel a big BBQ with closest friends and all my family. It was at about 30 people who all were wanting to talk with me. The bbq was for me being alive from the stroke. I realized, after a small close view of people, my brain couldn't do it. Wife agrees with me. So we plan on doing small groups one at a time. Starting with my fishing groups. Basically my closest friends and the first people, outside my wife and kids, I instantly remembered after "waking up" from my stroke. I could tell them all by name immediately.
So today was my big check. Unfortunately not for good reasons. Had a family wake today. Luckily the majority of the people aren't my relatives (she was my aunt out of marriage) so out of my Uncle and cousins they weren't relatives. I still had to deal with people talking that I wanted to talk to. I did have a little problem but not as bad I thought i might have. Two small times I needed to cool down and breathe, but small and quick and not noticeable except by my wife. And fine without leaving the area to cool off.
So next is small bbq with my closest friends. Next after is the Swap and Shop. See how I do. Unfortunately the swap and shop may be the biggest check. Depending on how many show up. Again I'll let every know any problems I'm having and what to do. Luckily not much to do on your end except to leave me be if I say I need to be alone for a bit. Don't need helps to follow, just let me be alone for 20 to 40 minutes (depends how bad I try to keep doing it when I'm feeling bad).
A bad problem to check myself, but the check was a good check. I was worried, and very badly so, how I would do.
So small quick update
. You had to listen to them all or would get in trouble from another family member i wasn't talking to. Even when they're yelling. You could see how i was around people you would be amazed. I still love people so isn't easy for forced quite time. I do love my quite time but I'm my idea. My brain forcing me down kills me. 
