SFR Lost fishing buddies

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Triploidjunkie

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I was thinking about old fishing partners tonight, after a heartbreaking encounter last week. We probably all have fishing partners we miss, either from death or other factors. Mine was addiction.
I had a buddy from highschool that was always down to go fishing. He was a gear guy, but was learning fly fishing from me right before he went down the wrong path. I saw him the other day, having a spirited argument with a stop sign. He looked homeless, and at least thirty years older than me. He wouldn't have recognized me, no matter what. It's sad. I've known him since kindergarten. He was never the sharpest tool in the shed, but had wealthy parents, and every advantage to do something with himself.
After highschool we used to backpack into the high country and fish hidden gems most people would never see. Right before his downward spiral, I took him to Ell lake in it's heyday, and he landed some pigs on chironomids. He was hooked on fly fishing. A few weeks later we were hiked into the backcountry, fishing some Cascade alpine lakes and creeks when I caught him snorting an Oxycodone. He tried to get me to do one, but I stomped off downstream to catch some cutthroat. I found him a couple hours later passed out (probably OD) laying half in the creek. Lobster red, just like the scene from "The Movie". It looked like he just tipped over while fishing. We were ten miles in from the trailhead, and thirty from the nearest hospital. As I was assessing what to do, he came to. We were supposed to stay another night, but I hiked out, and he had to follow as he rode with me. I never fished or had contact with him again. He rapidly devolved into heroin, like most of them do. He's in jail more than out, and when you do see him, he's usually arguing with an inanimate object.
I've lost several fishing partners, some from cancer, some from reckless choices like drinking and driving, but this one always seems to sting worse. Especially when you see him stumbling around town like a zombie.
 
Sorry to hear about this Trip. This problem we are all facing just seems to be getting worst and worst 😕
 
Growing up and living in the places I did I'm absolutely no stranger to situations like this. There are no answers, only questions. I myself out of selfishness or self preservation always try to help for a time and then essentially give up and divorce the person. Had to do it several times. Hard to do funerals on something like that as well. Most times I don't. This may seem cold or feelingless but it's much more utilitarian than that. I've learned you can't really force anyone to do much of anything even if that thing is saving their own life. I just don't want to be standing around watching it degrade into shambles and often death. I also do not under any circumstances tolerate to be stolen from or have my trust violated. My reaction to such things may wreck my own life. Knowing this I keep a distance.

I recently had a former good friend, basically a brother show up on my doorstep on foot wanting to come in to use my phone. I hadn't seen him in a long time and knew he was in a bad way. I live in a small place and such information is free. I asked what the issue was. He was trying to get transport about ten miles away. I told him I would drive him rather than have him in my home office while I work. I knew about where he wanted to go and on my way out the door I grabbed my 9mm. I didn't really know why as it was an afterthought. But instincts are often better than sentiment. As we got on the highway four cop cars went by lights blazing. I to this day don't know if it was related to him or not.

He led me to a very sketchy remote group of old homes with tweaker trash everywhere. A couple of tweakers came out upon our arrival. It was then that I knew why I had the sense to grab a piece before leaving. I almost never carry and never advertise even ownership of any firearms. I'm sure my old friend would be shocked to even know I possess such things. Long story short I bid my friend goodbye and was keenly aware of my being sized up by the others as a possible target. I spoke few words to them and communicated with my posture that I in no way trusted them and while cordial was not friendly. They kept a distance and I left. I haven't seen my friend since and frankly don't want to unless he makes a change. Knowing he is responsible for a string of burglaries, some violent, isn't any comfort. Did I aid him fleeing police? I to this day don't know. What I do know is when the phone rings and it's an unfamiliar number and I hear his voice I'm not excited. I know I'm in for a conversation I would rather not have. Bottom line is that it is just fine to extricate yourself from someone's life. They don't even have to know about it. Life is far too short and precious to be drug down by someone you love but don't trust. Time is the most valuable resource I know and I simply don't have time for it. Cold? Maybe so, but I know I am powerless to save someone from themselves.
 
The subject of opioids was addressed in the 'Subliminal' book I mentioned in the 'What are you reading?' thread. Experimental evidence is beginning to show that pain killers work on emotional pain as well. Hard to convince people to stop using something that works. Add to that the fact you can't turn on a tv set without someone hawking a pill that will change your life and the price gouging by Big Pharma and you get a perfect storm of on-line shams featuring fentanyl pills.
 
I had a great friend who loved to fish…cancer took him at the age of 28. I had speared fish and grabbed lobsters for his wedding dinner…and cooked it. It was hard seeing someone who loved life so much just wither away and die. It still bothers me some 40 plus years later…
 
I'm sorry for your losses. Sounds like you all were some good friends. My friends and family all had distanced themselves from me at one point too. I wish I had a magic answer to share from my experiences but I don't.
 
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